I WANT TO STOP
My name is Esil-Alute. I’m Igala –from Kogi. I’m in love with a pastor’s daughter. We do have sex though she often acts coitophobic. She has told me that we’re sinning and must stop. But she’ll call me that she wants me and I’ll always go to her place, unable to resist her.
Now, when I settle as a driver in her car, she’ll be crying, seriously badly, saying, “Ha, God! Again, I sinned. And I said I won’t do this again o.” I’ll ask, “Should I get out of your car?” and she’ll tell me not to stop or get out. She’ll tell me that the road is smooth so, I should accelerate. She always gives me money and buys me things.
The problem is that I’m a Fellowship Coordinator in a Secondary School in Kano –being the CRS teacher and the only Christian teacher in the school. I am always sorrowful, feeling too bad. I want to stop. We want to be free. But we couldn’t. I don’t know what to do.